i'm exhausted

i'm exhausted, tired,etc......it seems to be ages since i last wrote in here...or mayb time just passes too slowly for me nowadays...lunch time in office nw, every1 is out for lunch except me...since wrkin here-i hv been lazy to walk out for lunch...gd in a sense-save $$ n save energy

im realli tired now...it's not only u who is going thru all this, everyone in our family too---mama n cousins, ur friends etc...i duno when r u goin to stop tormenting urself-it's nt d end of d world..(u saying dat im nt d one who is facing it so of coz i dun understand)..so wat do u wan me to do..to cry everday wif u as if it's d end of d world... u r not fighting against a terminal disease..think of d ppl less fortunate than u, rather than of d ppl who r luckier than u....if you continue such a negative mindset-wat else can we do?? i know u r scared of surgery..who wld want to go thru surgery..but if there's no other alternatives....no other way but to face it