i shouldnt be writing this at wrk..but i cant concentrate anymore tis few days-i dun even know what im doing...
do you actually know that we are hurting becoz u r hurting....u have been saying dat i take my family for granted, my priority is with friends-nt family...actually i dun understand wat makes u think so....
u thot dat we were close enuf to share problems n worries...am i ever d sort to share problems with ppl..im always d type dat prefer to keep everything to myself....i cant help it..but tis has been it since young...yes-it's true dat letting it out doesnt necessarily means making ppl ard u get involved in ur worries, instead it makes us understand n noe each other better, but u r not letting it all out-i still think dat u r not letting it out completely
you only know hw to say i value my frens more than family, everytime u say this-i would juz cry nonstop...please stop repeating tis ever n ever again...i take my family for granted....u reali think dat way....before dat-why don't u ask urself too--is ur priority reali on us all d time in ur whole life? who was d one who always stay out in d weekends,coming hm in d wee hours-or not even cming back at all- who was d one who values her friends so much & always going holidays with them so many times per year....and please before u start to misunderstood me again-im nt blaming anyone or complaining-i just want u to think if u are so right in saying dat i take my family for granted
but hvg losing papa, u hv learnt to treasure ur family more n not to take them for granted cos frankly speaking they wont be with u forever. do u think u r d only one who was so affected with papa leaving us...please y dun u think of me oso, n even mama- i was only 12 dat time- d impact was so negative on me dat i was under supervision wif counselors...i dun think any one of u know dat in fact...im different fr u coz u grow up wif both papa n mama....n since young-im used to coming back to a empty house-opening d doors myself & doing things on my own...n for u, u seldom even use ur house keys,coz u nvr ever cm back to a empty house...dat is d difference between both of us- hw we grow up, how we handle matters & hw we handle our troubles..so dun ever say dat family is nt impt to me juz becoz u dont see me showing any concern on d surface
i wrote dat i felt lucky dat my frends were by my side..n u saying dat u r more glad dat family is by ur side.....goodness me..i say dat im glad my friends r by my sides DO NOT MEAN THAT I DON CARE IF MY FAMILY IS BY MY SIDE...don't u think u have been super senstive this few months, and always misunderstanding wat i meant.. tis is d reasons why we had so many quarrels or aguments tis few months
so please,do not think that i don't care about my sis...don't u know y i beginning to think dat my sis dislike me-ur behaviour seems so,ur attitude to me seems so
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hainz... why become like tat? Misunderstanding, miscommunication etc....... put a full stop... hv a good talk with each other....No one is at wrong..... put a full stop before it gets worse...remember Blood is Thicker Than Water.... Family bonding is priceless.. don lose it.....
i never ever said my priority was on my family all my life. what i meant was this was a phase in life. there was a phase in life that i, like u now, value my frens more than anything. u r rite, that was the phase of time in 2006 & 2007 when i kept hanging out wif them, staying out late till wee hrs, n gg holidays wif them, but i never not come back home. after that passing phase, like i say, as i grew older, my priorities changed, so now my priorities are on my family. n before u misundestand again, im not stressing that u value ur frens more, i juz thought that u MAY b in the phase tt i was in then. i never knew u minded me staying out in weekends, gg holidays wif frens, if u could have told me which i noe u wont, i would hv noe. i have indeed neglected my family during that 2 yrs, but im glad i realised it before more yrs go by.
when i mentioned abt papa, i never ever said u n mama wasnt affected. the impact was as big on each one of us. of coz i wont noe in fact u went counselling, coz u din tell. ya u went under supervision wif counsellors.. nobody in my sch knew what happened except for one teacher.. from then onwards, everytime each one of u is not home when late, i will think of bad things happening. i dowan to say what bad things i thot of.. till now such thots aways rumble in my mind. before really going to sleep, i go look at u all to check n everyday when i sleep i hope i will wake up the next day. i became a pessimistic person from a optimistic one.
not only u have cm back to an empty house please. the only reason was that u were back earlier than me and mama was at work. true there's a difference wif both of us, i nvr said we were same. nobody can b the same in this world.
i have aways been sensitive, u never realised maybe. true i m extremely sensitive these two months, please just pardon a old woman wif no job, no career, no life, no frens n no health, who sometimes need to vent out her frustrations n stress.
from the day u were born, i NEVER EVER dislike u, if u wana think so, i cant do anything. my behavior n attitude does not imply i dislike u. i will never ever bring myself to dislike a sis who has been wif me since young. my behaviour n attitude is juz for myself, cant i be angry wif myself?
sometimes i hope i can go back to when i was young, where such arguments will never happen.
forget it...tis issue wld juz go on & on..coz u r d one who always starting all over n over again......
wat do u mean by i value my friends more than anything..my priority is on them...so by goin out with them once/twice per week means i value friends more than family....a ridiculous logic...ok-i stay at hm every single day fr now onwards...n fyi-i dun care if u go out or stay at hm-dat's ur personal rights which nobody has d rights to interfere
u hope u can go back to when u was young, where such arguments will never happen?? if u didnt realise it-u get into mood swings every now and then, & u start imagining tis n dat..n d cycle like now goes on again
aiyoh..... enough of the misunderstanding.... is a small matter niah.. not so serious as to affect family relationship.. COOL DOWN.... COOL DOWN...... since both of you voiced out views.. and know each other's thinking instead of carry on the guessing game...
Both of you.. try to put yourself in opposite shoes.. views will be different.. don keep boxed up your thinking..
纠纷难免会有,开门见山的说,姐妹亲, 有今生没来世. 其实不是什么大问题. 不要在让妈妈难过了...好好珍惜FAMILYVALUE bah!!!!
do u need to be so defensive in your every comment? i dun care if u go out or stay at home? thats so hurting.. did i tell u to stay at home everyday.. no need la, go go u can go out all u like, coz its your personal rights, i have no rights to interfere as well.
whatever, u r rite, i am wrong.. i am wrong for getting into mood swings. tts it, i wont come to your blog ever again to post comment again.
ok its my fault. so close this issue from now.
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